If I repeat that over and over I’ll start believing it, right?
It was my 29th birthday in early May and I actually felt that it was a beautiful thing. But I don’t feel like that all the time if I’m being honest.
Part of me is afraid of wasting my time, wasting my youth. And why shouldn’t I? It’s so so important to be doing what you love and what matters. To have some sense of direction and purpose. To invest in what you want for yourself and your family. I’m realizing that as I’m growing.
I don’t feel all that grown up, though. You know what I mean? Like my mom says: “We have all ages in us.” And I feel that we do. I’m a kid and a mom. I play and I work – preferably both at the same time.
As I’m getting older I’m learning the importance of accepting/embracing some things (especially those I cannot change) and rejecting things I don’t want in my life. I’m demanding more from myself and I’m also cutting myself some slack.
Remember that question from Sex & the City: “Are we getting wiser or just older?” I’d like to think that I’m getting wiser too. And when I’m not too stubborn I try to apply that wisdom to my life and grow.
Getting older is not about ageing, it’s about growing. At least it should be. I don’t know how I’ll feel when 30 gets closer but I’m not above panicking about it. Even though it definitely is a beautiful thing.
25 Beautiful Things is a blog series about appreciating the little and big things in life. I think about this a lot and want to share some of these thoughts with you throughout 2014 and beyond. There’s just so much to be thankful for. If you’d like to share something you’re especially thankful for right now, I’d love to hear about it in the comments.